ChLoE’s Blog

8z d only thng dats makin everythng right in my life…….

before it came into my lyf………..                           everything’s a mess…………                                                   nothing’s goin’ right………….                           but when it came………….                     it made everything right…………                             it made my lyf move on the right path………..                                     it’s the only joy i have aside from my crux………….                                   i’m happy doing it……………….                                         it already became my whole life………..                           it made my lyf whole………..                                               but now……………                                         he’s taking it away from me!!!!!!!!!!!………….                                         surely my lyf will be ruined again………..                                           surely i will never be whole again……….                                       surely i’ll be lost again…………                               surely joy will be sucked out of my heart………                                   i must have it back…………                                       or else…………                             i’ll never be the same again……….                     singing and dancing for my Lord is the only thing i know is right in my lyf…………                             if he’ll take it away from me………                             i’d be lost insadness……………                                               coldness. ………..                                       i can’t let him take it away…………………..                                                 i must do something……………….                                           maybe i should runaway………….                                                             guyz… ……..                                   help me…………                               where can i go?…………….                                       please help me guyz………                                 ………

When lust is talked about, the first thing that pops up into the minds of every person is, overwhelming desire for flesh, or overwhelming sexual desire. But, this shouldn’t be, because, lust is a broad word and means more than that.

 

Young people of the present generation are living out their lives full of lust. With the things that the young ones see, hear, and read, curiosity grows inside their minds and heart. Their curiosity leads them eventually to doing things that they are not supposed to do so, resulting to sinning and self-destruction.

 

Lust is a battle for everybody. Christians – both men and women – have struggled with it for generations. What does lust really mean? Why is it so hard to change? How can we deal with its power to shape our lives?

 

Most people have come to equate lust with sexual desire that in the dictionary, lust refers to intense sexual desire or appetite, an uncontrolled or illicit sexual desire or appetite; lecherousness. In many cases in Scripture, lust does refer to illicit sexual desire (1 Pet. 4:3). As a result, if a person is not struggling with illicit sexual thoughts or behavior, he is assumed free from lust. But nothing could be further from the truth.

 

Dr. Dan Allender says “the word in the New Testament that is translated “lust” means strong desire. The word can be used to describe a legitimate, godly desire. Jesus said to His disciples: “I have eagerly desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer” (Luke 22:15). Elsewhere Paul said he strongly desired to depart this life to be with the Lord (Phil. 1:23), and yet he also strongly desired to be with his friends (1 Thessalonians. 2:17). Strong, passionate, eager desire or lust is not inconsistent with God’s purpose for our lives.”

 

Though lust is not bad at all, from the Bible and from some experiences of other people, a strong desire, or lust, can be immoral and destructive. Just like the situation of a thirty-five-year-old man, who had fought an obsession with pornography since he was eight years old. He was alternately victorious and then overwhelmed by his lustful desires. His occasional trespasses endangered his ministry and threatened his relationship with his family. But this man’s battle with lust was not confined solely to sexual pictures and mental images. In fact, his lust manifested itself in workaholism, extreme absorption in hobbies and reading, and an obsessive desire to please others. To focus too narrowly on his sexual lust would have caused lose of the bigger picture of his battle with addictive desires.

 

Lust becomes destructive when a person’s desire goes out of bounds or out of balance.

 

An out of bounds lust is a person’s desire that is no longer pleasing to God’s eyes. For example, a husband’s feeling of sexual desire towards his wife is appropriate, but, a feeling of sexual desire towards his officemate is no longer a legitimate desire. On the other hand, an out of balance lust is a justifiable desire that hinders our ability to serve God and his people. For example, a student who is so consumed by getting good grades (a legitimate desire) that he is unable to spend time pursuing God

 

Here is a person who is struggling in her battle against lust, this girl who was raped from at the age of seven. Because of innocence, sex became the name of the game that she used to play with her male playmates. This only stopped when they already changed residence. As she grew up, she learned to masturbate and watch x-rated films secretly. Then she entered a religious fellowship but backed out because of guilt and her feeling of filth. She really is determined to change but she says that the temptation is too great for her to handle.

 

Dr. Dan Allender says “God made us with a desire, a desire for intimate relationship with Him and for meaningful service in His world. The Fall perverted those desires. The quest for intimacy was replaced by a desire for its quickest counterfeit: illicit sexual pleasure. Our God-given desire for meaningful service was twisted to a lust for power over others. These counterfeits appeal to us because they seek to replace God and His high standards with something that is familiar and undemanding. Paul says fallen man did not worship God but replaced Him with the creature (Ro. 1:18 -23). The creature does not require repentance or gratitude. The creature does not demand brokenness or service. Creature worship only requires denying the true emptiness inside and hiding the shame that arises in turning our back on God and others.”

 

Why is that form of lust so difficult to overcome? Because it is the best alternative to satisfying empty hearts without dependently bowing knees before God. Changing it not only requires giving up something that has worked, to some degree, to fill our empty hearts, but it also necessitates embracing a God who invites us to experience what we deeply despise – brokenness, poverty, weakness, and dependency.

 

What is required for destructive lust to be transformed into passionate, lively, and loving desire for God and others? Well, here’s another story that says self – discipline is not enough to distort destructive lust into a legitimate desire before God. This is a story of a boy along with other Christian boys who listed things they should change for the coming New Year. They listed there that they won’t kiss any girls anymore and including the promise that they will no longer masturbate. After they passed the paper and one-by-one and listed things that they will do, they sealed the paper with a prayer. As they prayed, they felt the angels beaming down on them happily getting curious about what they were doing. Days went by remembering the promise that they made as part of their discipline, the temptation was too much for them to bear and they eventually gave in and broke the promise that they made and sealed with prayer. They came back to what they got used to. Until the boy came to realize that self-disciplining is not enough, that they can’t get lust off their sleeves by themselves. They needed the help of the Lord. They needed to confess, ask forgiveness, and repent from their evil doings. They needed to put in their minds that they are not going to change themselves to make themselves clean, but to change themselves to please and glorify the Lord.

 

God gave His only begotten son to save the sinners; Jesus was crucified to wash all of the people’s sins. If a person will accept him as his personal savior surely all of his guilt and shame will be washed away by his blood. He will be forgiven if he will confess, and ask forgiveness. If a person will submit his self to the Lord, God’s love will defeat the destructive lust that is in that person, and He will transform it into a Godly lust.

 

Oh I really do not know what to do………….

should i forgive?……………………….

yeah i know……. i really have to……..

‘coz that’s what God tells us to do so………………..

but how can i forgive a person

who hurts me over and over again?…………..

yeah……i know……..

i should hate the sin but not the sinner……….

but it’s too much…………

that person always thinks I’m so bad……..

that person is so dirty-minded……….

that person thinks I’m flirting with some boys out there………

it’s so bad……..

I’m not like that!……….

i don’t even have a crush right now!……….

‘coz i know that having a crush will just make me go insane……

that person also thinks that I’m doin’

something wrong out there somewhere………..

and keeps on spreading the wrong info………..

ruining my whole life……….

ruining my dignity………….

ruining my self confidence……….

ruining me as a person…………..

that person also is so prideful…………

that person won’t listen to what I’m gonna say to protect and defend myself………

for that person always stand on what he believes in…….

regardless if what he believes in is true or false……….

I’m trying to live my life right now in a more wonderful, and beautiful way……..

I’m tryin’ to live in a christian way…….

I’m trying………..

I’m trying my very best to repent fro my old bad ways……

I’m tryin’ so hard……….

that person just don’t notice it……….

just don’t appreciate the things that i am doing……..

‘coz i think…………

that person always look at my faults and imperfections………..

that person maybe is a perfectionist……….

yeah……. i know i shouldn’t judge………

but……..

that’s what i have noticed……….

oh……..

I’m too tired of getting hurt over and over again………

I’m too tired……….

I’m fighting so hard………..
against my hatred over that person……..

i know i shouldn’t develop hatred in my heart………..

for God won’t be pleased with it………

I’m losing patience…………..

my strength is draining……….

this hatred is slowly taking over the happiness i have in my heart………..

slowly engulfing the joy inside me………

oh…………..

my God please help me………..

I don’t wanna hate that person……….

but that person is the one looking for a way………..

that person have no right to hurt me…………..

who is he/she ?………………

i don’t even have a relation with him/her……..

hhhhhmmm….

yeah………

i know…….

i should forgive………..

i should………..

but……..

when I’m already ready to forgive that person……..

that person will again hurt me……….

oh no………..

it’s so hard……………

when will that person stop?…………

when that person will perish already?…………

oh………..

I really do not know…………….

when will that time to forgive come?………..

I’ve struggled so hard………..

I’ve struggled for a very long time already………..

it’s too much to bear………..

yeah………….

i know………….

God will never sleep…….

He will never slumber………

He will never tire of hearing our payers…………

and when we are weak He becomes stronger……..

So I’ll rest in His love……

and cast all of my cares on Him………….